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11/11/11 :D

2011-11-10T12:10:00.000-08:00

Its 11/11/11 people!

Nice date isn't it?

James Chai: 11/11/11 leh! Any flashback? Laughs!

Quarreled again and i'm freaking shag.

He's one that say no hiding and yet he's also the one hiding.

Wth?

And I gave him the right to decide if we still goes on or let go.

Sigh.

Karma is slapping me hard on the face already.

Like seriously.

I guess no matter how hard I try, the results will still be the same.

Like what people say, 1st month is always the honeymoon period.

And yes, I agree.

Goodnight people.

ESTHER x3

Fuck up life.

2011-11-06T04:02:00.000-08:00

Blog has been dead for don't know how long and there's somebody who makes me feel like blogging again.

Life for me recently is like a roller coaster ride.

Up & Down.

Never thought my dead blog can be found out so easily.

This show how interesting my life is for people to check it out.

Laughs.

And I seriously need to be happy for those who comment about me.

To stay positive, I told myself that people who comment about me are jealous about my life.

It has been almost a year since I last updated my blog.
And yea, time flies.

My dear baby boy is 2 years old and am happy that he grew up.

Though he is not with me but still, I hope he has a good bringing up.

As a 18 year old girl, I guess life for me should be studying and enjoying.

But sad case for me, lawyer firm and family court is part of my schedule now.

And as for my ankle injuries, will be going for my appointment on the 16th of November.

That's two weeks later.

God bless me that I wouldn't have to go for surgery.

Am really worry that I would have to go for the surgery as I don't want to go out with crutches.

I still want my heels to be worn.

And of course, clubbing.

Sad.

Won't be talking about my relationship in this post as I don't want to talk more about it.

All I can say is, I'm on a roller coaster ride.

Up & Down and never stable.

Laughs.

Shall stop here I guess.

Nothing more for me to update as well.

God bless everyone that's reading my post,

Esther.

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2011-04-27T07:52:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-27T07:49:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-27T07:43:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-27T07:37:00.003-07:00

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2011-04-27T07:37:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-26T17:02:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-26T17:00:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-18T05:23:00.005-07:00

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2011-04-18T05:23:00.003-07:00

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2011-04-18T05:23:00.001-07:00

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Hi.

2011-04-15T23:50:00.000-07:00

Hi readers!

It's been awhile since I am back here.

Laughs!

School was the same.

One word to decide ; S.U.C.K.S

Got in-house suspension just because I was absent for one weeks with valid reasons.

4 weeks of in-house suspension and I am left with 2 weeks.

Laughs!

But I felt that having in-house suspension is better than staying in class.

At least I am able to learn and adapt fast.

Mid-Year examinations are coming and I am gonna fail for sure.

Was able to see my dear Xavier every friday now unless his father's family are playing punk again.

Just like yesterday.

Sad case for me right?

But last friday was fun for me and Xavier.

Looking at his innocent smile and running around happily, it make my days.

Dear boy is able to speak more words now and more fluent.

But still, mischievous.

Laughs!

Went for friend's birthday yesterday with Alicia, her boyfriend and of course my dear boyfriend.

We were like gone round the bend yesterday, joke and fool around as if we rule the world.

But still, it's enjoyable and happy!

Cheeeeers!

Laughs.

Okay, I think I gotta stop here and go revise my mathematics.

After that should be off to orchard to collect my mp3 and phone.

Oh god.

It has been 3 months since I listen to it.

Faulty set.

Bye readers!

Esther. L

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2011-04-15T23:48:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-15T23:47:00.007-07:00

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Habits are hard to kick. But not impossible. Is it true ?

2011-04-15T23:47:00.005-07:00

No.

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2011-04-15T23:47:00.003-07:00

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2011-04-15T23:47:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-11T19:05:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-11T18:51:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-11T09:32:00.007-07:00

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2011-04-11T09:32:00.005-07:00

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2011-04-11T09:32:00.003-07:00

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2011-04-11T09:32:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-04T05:51:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-03T11:16:00.005-07:00

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2011-04-03T11:16:00.003-07:00

who are you?

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2011-04-03T11:16:00.001-07:00

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2011-03-30T17:07:00.001-07:00

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2011-03-30T04:38:00.001-07:00

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2011-02-27T01:04:00.000-08:00

Hi readers!

Looks like my blog is dead for like decades already.

LAUGHS!

Nothing much to update.

As per normal, school S.U.C.K.S .

And I think I am getting suspended soon.

Just because of some big mouth and 8 sticks of cigarettes.

-.-

Stupid school.

Duh~

Dear Xavier is back to his "dad", and I still get to see him for 2 hours time in a week.

And he's attitude is getting more and more worse.

Throwing tantrum like no one cares.
Piss.

Bet they must have pampered him too much.

And I realize he doesn't like to share toys or things with people.

Things are getting off hand for him.

Bought him a pair of sandals during chinese new year and I bet that shoe must have been missing.

Visit him and saw him wearing other sandal.

And none of the time he's wearing the sandal I bought.

Fuck the family seriously.

Pardon me for the vulgars but the sight of their face makes me feel like puking and slapping them.

No worries, retribution will be soon going to knock on their doors.

Not to be mean but for them I must.

Esther. L

Accept a backstabber and give him/her a chance or, hate him/her to the max?

2011-02-22T10:36:00.001-08:00

Accept a backstabber and give him/her a chance or, hate him/her to the max?

Answer here

11.11.1o ♥

2010-11-11T07:58:00.000-08:00

Hello~
Back to my blog since its like dying.
-.-
Went back to school on monday and became back to a school girl.
I don't like!
):
Starting work on next Tuesday!
More don't like!
):
Had a mini gathering with my primary schoolmates and of course primary school teacher.
Enjoyed so much till I almost forgot bout my lion dance training.
Reached there at 9pm.
I am like sooooo late.
:x
After training first thing I do is, go back home for audition wedding. ♥
Reached home and found out my door knob is missing and its like my brother's room now.
I don't like~
Settled down and there I go, Audition.
Wedding was successful.
♥ dear lah!
hehe.
Gotta go bath now.
Bye~

Signing off,
Esther.L ♥ James.C

I had enough.

2010-11-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

Hello people..

Went hospital this morning and head over to CCK to wait for James and Matthew to book out.

Stayed for like 2 hours and finally they came.

-.-

Uncle Kenny text me and say he's meeting me at Causeway Point at 5pm to make a new spectacles for me.

Met Mingfen cousin as well.

Made a new specs and it look like I kid I swear.

-.-

Rush back home and prepare things for Lion Dance training.

Reached there at 7.30pm.

My dear Coach daddy wasn't here today.

Had a crazy training today.

After that, things happened that spoiled my entire happy mood.

Baby called mummy.

And he said a lot to mummy.

I felt those breakup mood again.

Sigh.

Fuck my life seriously.

I don't know how to take all these stress anymore.

Just wanna leave this place.

But there's no place.

Need a shoulder to cry on.

Felt like crying but there isn't any tears for me to cry.

Sigh~

Esther.L ♥

I H Y TTM.

2010-11-03T07:47:00.001-07:00

Hi people!

Finally, I'm back.

This few weeks has been staying at home.

Shag life.

And my boyfriend is like drifting away.

Is it that his feelings had fade off?

Sigh.

Don't wish to think anymore.

Starting work at 15th November.

Sort of clerical job.

Kinda moody now.

Sigh.

Signing off,

Esther. L ♥

Discharge.

2010-10-26T07:11:00.000-07:00

Finally, I'm back.

Was hospitalized from 18 of October till 21 of October.

Wasn't allow to eat or drink.

Shag!

Keep on dripping and dripping and dripping.

And my hand till now is still a bit of swollen and bumpy.

Argh!

Went out on Saturday.

Met Alicia and Jan at Causeway Point and head over to AMK to meet Jeremy.

After that Kelvin Kee joined.

Atmosphere straight away changed.

And because of this I had an breakup.

Went for pool session and after that bus-ed back to woodlands.

Reach woodlands at around 9pm.

Went to arcade and saw Eng Hock.

And he's like so shock to see me in that kind of outfit.

Laughs.

After that went down to smoke and then poof, I went to meet Wenting and Wenqiu.

Jeremy tag along as well.

K session till 2am and of course, thanks Wenting for that Vodka ribena.

But its really a no cake liquor.

-.-

Cab back home and saw didi and co at house downstairs.

Was too tired that day.

Reach-ed home, bath, remove makeups and poof!

Off to bed!

This few days was quite bored.

Got myself MC for 12 days.

Woots!

Haha.

Went to Legal Aid Bureau lawyer firm today in the morning.

And joke of the day, Xavier's irresponsible dad gave the lawyer a useless certificate as a document.

Laugh My Ass Out.

Haha!

And then when I ask the lawyer's secretary that if he got himself imprisoned, will he get Xavier's custody not.

And she replied, definitely no!

And I was like, oh okay.

Then I told her about the cantonment case.

Then she was like kinda shock.

Reach woodlands at around 1pm and off to bed!

Sleep till now got woke up by messages and calls then I started realize that I had slept for one whole day.

Shall continue my sleep.

Bye people!

Signing off,

Esther.LQE. ♥

I'm confused.

Xavier's first birthday.

2010-10-17T09:59:00.000-07:00

Hello peeps!

Firstly, Happy Belated Birthday to Xavier babyboy, Binwen, Joanna & Tea Jiner!

It's so coincidence!

Haha!

Went to fetch babyboy in the morning with TanZhenYuan and my lil babyboy is so devoted to him.

-.-

Stick to him till he forget his mummy was there as well.

Haha!

And I don't know why Xavier is so engrossed in pressing the Bus Stopping Bell.

Laughs!

He played till he was tired and fell asleep on the bus.

Reached Causeway and he's awake again!

Stick back to Zhenyuan and keep on pestering him to bring him for Kiddy rides.

-.-

And yes, that idiot let him play with his bare foot.

The floor is dirty and Xavier insist on stepping it.

Got his cake and went back home.

First reaction he came in, Cry.

-.-

Then keep on giving me the "mummy, Save me!" face.

As if my whole family is gonna eat him up.

Haha!

Slept till 3.30pm and something happened.

But Xavier is still as happy.

Only after Zhenyuan left.

Then he started getting moody.

Too devoted already.

No choice.

-.-

Sent Xavier back to Marsiling Mrt at 5.30pm.

He doesn't wants to go.

Sad!

And I don't know whether it's my gastric hurting me or what.

the pain is there for like 24 hours already.

And I'm on high fever now.

F M L.

Okay.

Stopping here.

Really not feeling well.

Signing off,

Esther.LQE x3

Baby and babyboy, I M Y.

F M L.

2010-10-08T12:37:00.000-07:00

Hello people!

Back to post!

Today was the commencing of EOY papers and I only took my english paper one.

Was having fever and not well to take.

Woke up and it's too late to get an MC.

Nice one.

S.S = 0 marks already.

Know a few people today.

Heh.

Nice to meet you guys!

Got some conflicts with Zhenyuan and got whack by him.

And I know it's my fault.

But, this can be prevented.

But then...

I shall not say it out then.

Long story.

Now I'm still running on fever and also with bruises all over my body.

Sigh~

Guess later don't need to see my Xavier already.

I don't want to pass my fever to him.

Sigh.

Nowadays keep on having bad omen.

Bad things keep on happening on me.

While all those bad people get so "yaya papaya".

Just feel so unfair!

Dear mighty O'Lord, can you please open your eyes and see who's suffering?

Sigh.

Signing off,

EstherLQE.

F M L .

Life Sucks.

2010-10-07T03:59:00.000-07:00

Finally back to post.

Okay.

Alot of things happened.

And my sixth sense is so accurate.

No mood for school anything.

And that bastard is gonna snatch Xavier from me.

Come on man.

Let's see who shall win.

I got nothing left except for my beloved Xavier.

Starting to get no interest in school no matter how motivated I am.

Just don't like the life I had.

Who say haters are great?

They simply sucks okay.

Cause they think they are in position to comment on people.

But they never think of their act.

Nevermind.

It's their life anyway.

EOY is starting from tomorrow.

Gotta rush for it.

My motivation, Xavier.

And also to suceed.

Jiayous Esther!

You can do it!

Signing off,

EstherLQE.

I H Y.

2010-09-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

Hellooo!

Finally I am back to blog!

Hehe!

But bad things keep on finding me.

Firstly, School stuff.

Went back to school for like one months already.

But school is never fun except of my warm hearting classmate and of course, My two crazy cliques!

My bloody school teacher is finding me alot of problem except for my DM.

Secondly, my health matter.

My ankle is creating alot of trouble to me.

Fuck.

The doctor says it will take minimum half a year to heal.

Longest 2 years.

Shag.

And my school doesn't believe it.

Fuck.

Thirdly, Xavier's returning.

Sigh.

I still don't know when my babyboy can come back to me.

His 1st birthday is coming and I really hope he can have a memorable birthday.

But I still don't know whether it's possible not.

Sigh.

Fourthly, my relationship problem.

My boyfriend is quarreling with me everyday.

And he's finding lots of trouble for me to stress bout.

And I don't know what the hell he really wants.

Maybe his feeling is fading as the times goes by.

He don't make me feel loved.

Hell or Heaven?

Sigh.

Fifthly, my financial state.

Sigh.

I'm gonna declare bankrupt.

Broke like hell.

Sigh.

And looks like I got lots of things to stress.

There's still more to list out.

Maybe I should strike off BGR in my stress list and stay single?

Cause no guys are trustworthy I should say.

Stress uh!

Ending here.

Don't know what else to post anymore.

Sigh.

Signing off,

EstherLQE.

I H Y.

ShagShagShag.

2010-09-01T11:01:00.000-07:00

Hello People!
Damn shag this few weeks.
My DM told me that I cannot join them for overseas trip with them.
Sad!
I wanna have fun together with my three other crazy cliques.
In the end?
):
Sigh.
And for nothing I'm always get scolded.
Shag life man!
Something bad keep on happening.
And this week is common test week.
Diediedie.
I just went back for like 1 week and it's common test.
Sigh~
And ya, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY to all my teachers.
Went back to my primary school with primary school mates and it's fun!
And also ACES day walk was fun because my three crazy cliques was with me.
But soon they're going to Philippines already.
And like I said, I can't join them.
Just because I'm a retain-ed and on probation student.
Fuck.
It's unfair!
I hate my school man.
They make me think so unfair.
I know my teachers cared for me.
Especially my DM.
But almost all the time I feel so left out.
Sigh~
Really need to talk to someone.
Felt so left out in school and also when I'm with friends.
SHAG~
Sigh.
Stopping here.
Got school tomorrow.

Signing off,
EstherLQE.
I just don't like to get left out.
I wanna go overseas with school! ):

SchoolSchoolSchool.

2010-08-26T09:54:00.000-07:00

Hello people!
It's like quite a few time since I updated my blog. -.-
Went back to school already to continue my studies.
School was quite fun for me.
Heh.
Miracle that I will say that right?
Haha!
But sometimes I'm rotting because I don't know what the teacher is talking about. -.-
But then also got to try to understand.
Common test is round the corner but I'm still not prepare yet.
Die already. -.-
Alot of things happened this few days.
Sigh.
Shall not rake it up.
Sigh.
Need people to talk to but there's no one I can turn to.
Sigh!
Anyone willing to be my listening ear?
I'm really very stress.
Sigh.
Think I stop here already.
Using my phone to update and it's really difficult to.
Sigh.

Signing off,
EstherlQE.
):

MapleMapleMaple.

2010-08-11T02:13:00.000-07:00

Hello People!
It's been so long since I updated my blog.
Laughs.
Nothing much recently except for mapling.
And yes people, that's my character in MapleSEA.
I'm playing in Aquila world.
Went Amber21 last Saturday with my beloved baby, bby and aaron.
And both my baby and bby was like drunk.
Troubles came after that.
And I end up sleeping in my house's living room. -.-
My life is like turning to those no life kind already.
No place to go except for working.
If not, Maple again.
And it's like so difficult for it to level.
Yawn!
Seriously I don't know what else to post already.
Laughs.
And ya, if you guys don't mind, you guys can add me at ELQEx3 in maple.
Heh.
Pardon me for being a noob :P

Bye people!
EstherLQE. (:

Concussion.

2010-07-18T00:30:00.000-07:00

Hi world.
It has been a long time since I updated my blog.
And it's obvious it is rotting.
Laughs.
Recently alot of things happened.
I don't know where should I start.
And yes people, I am going back to school.
Laughs, good for me right?
And my dearest 奶奶 passed away on last Saturday.
Sigh.
奶奶, don't worry about me alright?
I will be fine.
You just have to look after us on heaven with Jesus.
Rest in peace alright?
I love you, 奶奶.
Sigh.
And on the first night of funeral, I left the funeral at 11pm and head over to Selarang camp to look for that idiot.
And the first thing he told me was not those caring words I need.
Instead, the first thing he say is to ask where is the cigarettes he asked me to buy.
What the fuck right?
I went home with a effing sad mood and guess what.
When I reached home, I am stuck at the gate with no key.
Ass.
And there's only James at home and he got no key as well.
No choice uh.
Call my brother to come back and open the gate for me.
After that I forgotten what happen and became unconscious.
I didn't even know that I was landed in the hospital.
And yes people, my brain got problem already.
Fuck it.
And my relationship is not doing well also.
Keep off break patch break patch.
Sigh.
I don't know what to say uh.
Fine.
Think I end here already.

Signing off,
EstherLQE.

The feeling wasn't the same.

2010-06-26T13:50:00.000-07:00

Hello peep.
I am fucking moodless while posting this bloody blog.
And by the way earthlings, I am going MIA soon except going to work.
People said that humans need friends.
But to me I don't think so.
Sigh.
Dear booked in to camp on Wednesday evening.
And during that time I was on my way to visit Amanda and little Avril with Jan.
And by the way, I changed a job again.
._.
And I knew a crazy fella named Jan over there.
Had real fun when we were hanging out.
Haha!
DrinkDrankDrunk.
That's what I did on Thursday night after work.
LOL.
And I created so much trouble to Jan& Alicia.
Thanks girls.
And on yesterday which is Saturday, I woke up at 8.15am and while preparing to see my dear babyboy, Xavier, I got a "headshot".
Fuck it.
Pictures can be view at my facebook.
And yes, I maybe will be disfigured.
LOL.
But I don't seems effing sad bout it.
I must be crazy. ._.
Cab down to Polyclinic straight away.
Met Jan at Boots& Shoe at 11.30am.
After that went down to Blk 19 there de market with Jan and James.
Me and Jan was gonna meet Alicia while James went to meet Xiaodi and Shangyuan.
And a big ThankYou to Foo ming for hat bowl of noodles.
Haha!
After that went Woodlands for Pool and then home sweet home.
And by the way, congratulations to AaronYJL for getting back his freedom and his love one.

Signing off,
ESTHERLQE.
The feeling isn't the same.

Fuck you.

2010-06-16T11:35:00.000-07:00

Hello people!
It has been so long since I updated my blog.
Dear came out on the 2nd of June.
2 days before my birthday.
Felt damn happy cause that day I was at Bugis shopping.
Rushed to dear's camp and fetch him.
Reached there gave him a hug and guess what.
He didn't hug back.
And he said, "don't hug me.".
What the fuck?
Nevermind.
I walked one side.
After that went to Waterfront to slack.
At that time, dear and me was fine.
But when we are leaving, same thing happened.
He walked off with xiaopang and liangwei.
Leaving me and chee chuan at Waterfront.
What the fuck is this again?
He really changed after he came out.
The feeling isn't the same.

3rd of June;
Accompanied dear to ttsh with cheechuan.
Count down my birthday there.
After that went to 131 to meet Liangwei.
Then, something bad happened.
Sigh.
There goes my birthday mood.

4th of June;
Happy Birthday to me!
Didn't sleep whole night cause I am so excited for the events.
Went to Universal Studios in the morning and played till evening.
After that went to Marina Square as Chee Chuan says he's going to get my present.
Guess what?
He got me 99 roses of shocking pink and champagne pink rose with a care bear at the front.
Thanks!
After that head down to Swensen's at ION Orchard to have our ice cream buffet.
Thanks all my ex colleagues and manager for the wonderful birthday song.
You guys must be thinking that I must be god damn happy right?
It's the opposite.
I am not happy at all.
Almost all my birthday, someone will make me cry and feel sad.
Sigh.
After that went to Party World KTV at Civic Centre.
Was drunk and reached home at around 3pm.
Was hoping the one that will look after me is my dear.
But, the answer is not.
He went off to meet his friend.
Leaving me behind again.
Sigh.

5th of June;
Dear say we're going to 678 in the night.
In the end, we didn't.
Went to 131 and drink.
Dear drank 3-4 cups only then he's dead drunk.
Wth.
Make me damn pissed off.
Wth.

6th of June;
Happy Birthday Cheechuan!
Forgotten what happened already.

8th of June;
Happy Birthday Mummy!
Went to dear's house in the morning.
Bought him mcdonald's breakfast.
After that in the evening went Causeway Point to get Mummy's cake.
Dear booked in already.
Sigh.

10th of June;
Actually going to fetch dear de.
But he can't book out.
Sigh.
Went to Lot 1 to get our rings done.
That's dear's birthday present.

11th of June;
Happy 2 monthsary dear!
Went to fetch dear from his camp.
And I alight at the wrong station.
Haha.
Funny right.
LOL.
Dear got me a big bear and a stitch as our monthsary and my birthday present.
Thanks dear.

13th of June;
Accompanied dear to ttsh again.
-.-
Dear count down his birthday there.
Just like me.
LOL.

14th of June;
Happy Birthday Dear!

The rest I can't remember already.
Sigh.
Sometime you showed me that your phone and your friends are more important than me.
Just called you 12 times dear and you didn't even bother to answer.
In the end?
You told Cheechuan what I don't know how to tap you ah.
Still say what don't care her lah.
What the fuck is this?
You think what.
Treasure me leh.
Everytime also like that de lah.
What the fuck.

Signing off,
ES THER.
I need to fix my broken heart.

Liquor I love you so much.

2010-05-26T18:05:00.000-07:00

Hello people !
Never went to work yesterday.
Cause I took MC.
And the sad thing is, I lost my MC.
Cb.
Went to Waterfront in the night for fishing.
Brought Jasper and Tipsy there.
HAHA!
Ate Fish and Chip for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner.
HAHA!
After that went home.
Watch Red Shoe till I fall asleep.
LOL.
After that woke up and watch 命中住定我爱你.
So in love with that show.
Ate my breakfast, Curry Instant noodle.
Thanks Liangwei.
HAHA!
Just drank liquor.
So shiok!
Haha.
Liquor number one.
Baby number two.
LOL.
Just joking.
Baby I love you so much.
LOL!
haha!
K lah.
Stop here already.

Signing off,
ES THERLQE.
TanZhenYuan my adore.
And also liquor.
:D:D

Fuck up family.

2010-05-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

Hello people!
It's like so long since I updated my blog.
Laugh out loud.
My life is so simple after baby went in.
Everyday thon till morning sleep then in the noon went for work till night.
Everyday it's like the same for me.
Lol -.-
Currently working at ION swensen's and everyday for me is work, work and work.
LOL.
And my dumb birthday is coming.
Thinking whether it would be a happy one or another unhappy one.
Cheechuan and Liangwei say they are gonna bring me to Universal Studio.
Thinking back, it was always baby who brought me there.
Now I'm going without him.
Sigh.
And by the way, I received his first letter already!
Haha!
Was so happy when I saw that.
But too bad, he can't be with me on my birthday.
Sad.
Nevermind.
He promised that he's gonna bring me to Genting after he come out.
Haha!
So I just got to wait lor.
Wait wait and wait.
LOL!
Hmm.
And yes, you people might be wondering why my title is that.
Cause I indeed got a fucked up family.
Always thought of them but all they think is themselves.
No choice mah.
人不为己天朱地灭.
Sigh.
Always think that if my dad was around then things wouldn't go this way.
Cause he's the one that always side me.
Unlike my mom.
She got both my brother enough already.
In her eyes I am just like a ATM machine.
Want money then she will talk to me nicely.
If not, fuck off.
Wth.
Sigh.
Why did I have this kind of family?
Unlucky me.
-.-
And I am going back to school real soon.
Wait till that principal is willing to accept the 1 and a half page essay of mine.
-.-
Don't know what the hell the principal is thinking.
Ownself call me and asked whether I wanna go back or not then still ask me write this kind of nonsence.
Childish.
-.-
Tomorrow's korkor's passing out parade.
He would definetely be damn happy one.
And that idiot is asking me for my iPhone.
Shit him.
-.-
Yawn!
Ending here.
Gotta wake up early tomorrow for work.
Laugh out loud.
8am-3pm.
Good luck for me uh.
7 hours of work.
Nice one.
Marvellous.
LOL!
haha.

Signing off,
ES THER ♥
If only you're here.

Photo's uploaded.

2010-05-10T11:56:00.001-07:00

Hi earthlings!

Went to school today to see whether I can get back or not.

And guess what?
The principal asked me to write a 3 page essay.

Wth?

After that went home and rest awhile and met Liangwei and Cheechuan at around 8pm.

Slack till 1am then went to Liangwei house and bring Tipsy out for a walk.

Haha.

Liangwei sent me home and I asked him to get Tipsy's bed home along.

On my facebook and realise edmund had uploaded my pictures already.

Thanks dude!

Haha.

The rest of the photos are at;

www.facebook.com/estherLQE
:D

If only baby were here to see my pictures.

Sigh.

Signing off,

Esther.

Started missing him again.

我很想他 ):

2010-05-09T14:45:00.000-07:00

Hi people.
Didn't get a chance to update as I was like so lazy to post.
Baby left one week already.
And I told myself that I must be 坚强.
And yes, I have done that.
For the past week I had been slacking with Liangwei and Cheechuan.
Thursday went to training.
And it's a miracle that I change in to uniform and trained with them.
So god damn tiring.
LOL.
Friday met Cheechuan for dinner at centre.
Something cropped up.
Mum asked me to rush down to AMK to top up electricity.
Wth.
Went to AMK and was like top up le then back to woodlands.
-.-
Met Liangwei at Pool centre and was playing billard.
And yes, I am a fuck noob.
LOL.
Went PartyWorld KTV after that.
Reached home at around 7am.
Didn't sleep for one whole day.
It was Saturday and I didn't even get to sleep.
Went in my room and saw KL and KC sleeping at my bed enjoying aircon.
-.-
Nevermind.
Went to Civic Centre with James to top up electricity again.
Reached home at 1pm and prepared to go for my photoshoot.
Met Nathalie at 2pm but I was late.
Met her at 3pm at her house as she was going to do my makeup for me.
After the makeup straight head down to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Edmund, the photographer.
Went to Fort Canning Park for my shoot.
And I got alot of mosquito bites during the shoot.
-.-
And yes people, the photos will be up around Wednesday or Thursday.
:D
Reached Causeway at 8.30pm and met the both of them again.
Went out and something happened.
Sorry for my nonsence uh.
My both arm got blue blacks and wounds.
And I don't know what the hell I did.
LOL.
Today slept for the whole day till 9pm then woke up.
Idiot me.
Met them again at Block 6 at 11.30pm.
Slack till 2am and headed back home.
Reached home and started to watch 红白喜事.
Just finishing watching 3 episodes and waiting for the new one to be uploaded.
And I am going to school to see principal later on at 2.30pm.
And I haven't even have my sleep.
Laugh out loud.
-.-
And I'm going to start work on Tuesday.
A first Part time job for me.
Yawn.

Bii,
I've got your address.
And I will write to you.
And of course I will include in one of the photo I took at the shoot.
Hope you can get what I mean after looking at the photo :D
Prayed hard that you're going to come out soon to be with me.
I love you.

Signing off,
Esther.
Bii, I am fine.

SHAGSHAGSHAG.

2010-05-04T14:09:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
All I can say now is SHAG!
Baby just left me last week and Xavier's gonna leave me tmr.
Sigh!
Cause MCYS thinks that nobody is able to look after Xavier.
So called "Step father" had been creating alot of trouble and adding on stress to mum.
I'm going back to study and also working part time and the MCYS thinks that Xavier should let people foster first.
Sigh.
Bad things keep on happening to me.
And those fuckers who thinks that they are right criticising people are having a good life.
Wth.
It's true that world isn't fair.
Nevermind.
I believe in karma and retribution.
Sigh.
Criticise more for all you want.
If you guys say that I'm not a good mom, come walk in my shoe.
I wanna know how "good" you guys can be.
People keep on criticising me for not going to work and rot at home.
Now that I gotta go work and MCYS say it's a must to let people foster Xavier and yet, people criticise me again.
Don't know what the fuck some humans are thinking.
Sigh.
One day when retribution came on knocking on their door then they will understand how it feels treating people that way.
Sigh.
Starting work at Swensens next Tuesday.
And gonna see prinicpal upcoming monday.
Sigh.
And its has been 125 hours since baby left me.
Wth.
Sigh.
Oevin publish on my facebook stating that aaron doesn't want to contact me when he's out.
And he even asked me to go and die.
What a joke.
I believe there must be someone who talk ill about me.
Nevermind.
Go ahead.
I don't really give a damn now.
Cause I don't wanna think childishly.
Sigh.
TANZHENYUAN ;

After you left alot of things happened.

You were not by my side and there's no one I can lean on.

Was thinking, when will I be able to feel you hug and kisses again?

I bet it must be long right?

Really miss you alot.

Wonder if you were same as me.
Sigh.
Awaiting for Saturday.
Drink, drank, drunk.
I am gonna make myself dead drunk that day.
At least it makes my brain to stop thinking for a moment.
Xavier ;

Go auntie house must be a good boy.

Must remember 外婆，大舅，mummy& 小舅.

Forget about your irresponsible fucking bastard dad.

Mummy don't bear to let you go de.

But things are getting worse.

Mummy need to earn more money to make sure you will have milk powder and diapers.

Mummy really will miss you alot.
Sigh.

Signing off,
Esther.
Baby, I really miss you.
Xavier, mummy miss you as well.

I really miss you alot.

2010-05-03T11:33:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
Back from block 6.
Reached home at 1am.
Went block 6 and met liangwei and cheechuan.
Four seats there and one is empty.
Usually it will always be full.
But now?
Sigh.
TANZHENYUAN!
If only you can see this.
Sigh.
你已离开了四天.我也没睡了三四晚.

我每天都在想,你及时才会回来.

每晚都是哭了才睡.

只想知道你到底在哪里,过得好吗?

是不是也和我一样?

真的真的很想你.
Sigh.
I always say that you're noisy when we thon all night.
But now?
I really hope you can be by my side.
I don't mind you're really noisy.
Cause now I can't even hear your voice.
Not even seeing your messages.
Looking at all the messages you send me.
Recalling back the day when we first whent out.
It really makes me feel like crying.
Really miss you alot.
But I got no news of you.
People may say that you're only in DB.
Not dead yet.
But the feeling is the same.
Cause I don't know when then I will see you again.
Felt so weird.
Met liangwei and cheechuan and you're not there.
Looking at couples hold hand and hug.
I am alone out here.
Really hope I am able to see you.
就算给我一秒也好.一秒可以给多少我都想要.我只想知道你到底这样了.
Sigh.
I really can't sleep.

Signing off,
Esther.
I miss you badly.

Sigh.

2010-05-03T03:55:00.000-07:00

Look at the dumb frindge of mine.

Hair tied up.

It has been 2 days since he left me.

Was wondering how is baby now.

Yesterday finally got news of my baby le.

He's currently at DB now as close arrest.

Haven't sentence yet.

Sigh.

And by the way, I got my frindge cutted.

It looks like bangs but it's not.

Pictures are showned aboved.

And yes, laugh all you want.

It's really funny.

Sigh.

This few days also never go anywhere except Block 6 void deck meeting Liangwei and Cheechuan.

They have been counselling me for the past 2 days.

Sigh.

And also sponsoring me cigarettes.

Thanks liangwei.

Sigh.

Wonder how long more than I will be able to see baby again.

Miss him alot.

Sigh!

By the way, AaronYJL is coming out on 25th of June.

Days without baby are really very boring and lonely.

Sigh.

If only he could know how I feel.

TANZHENYUAN!

你知道我很想你吗？你在里面过得好吗？

Sigh.

Signing off,

Esther.

I miss him alot.

Baby, I'll wait for you.

2010-04-30T13:33:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
This few days keep got no time to post.
And yes people, I'm back to my house yesterday.
Brought Xavier for his Hep B 3rd dose at polyclinic yesterday and baby accompanied me there.
Haha.
And the way he carry Xavier was like so funny.
Haha.
Then suddenly it started to rain cats and dogs.
And it was when we were heading back to my house.
Baby got himself whole wet while me and Xavier was under the umbrella.
Thanks baby! ♥
Brought Xavier home and head to Causeway point.
As per normal, baby went to his so call heaven to play his maximum tune.
-.-
After that went to Old Chang Kee and get some finger foods for me :D
Went Yishun after that to get my Donald Duck.
Thanks baby! ♥
That's another memorable gift from him.
Ate KFC after getting my Donald.
Went back Woodlands Centre to get all the bbq stuff.
And baby got Xavier a pack of diapers.
LOL.
Yes, he's supporting me and my son.
LOL.
After that baby carried all the things up to my house and rest awhile.
Jianfu, Liangwei, baby and I then went to 136 to had our dinner or in fact supper and cigarettes.
Slack awhile at 123 then baby send me home.
So sweet of him. ♥
Woke up at 12.35pm today and met baby at Causeway Point at 3pm.
Sorry!
I was late.
LOL!
He was at his so call heaven again when I met him.
Went down to meet Diana to pass her the contact lens money.
Thanks baby for getting me the contact lens. ♥
And Diana told me that somebody's asking bout me.
Hmm.. Since you don't even bother about me and Xavier why still ask?
Zhenyuan treats me better than you.
He doesn't let his family criticise me neither did he whack me.
He's also supporting YOUR son.
Don't you feel shameless you mama boy.
People cared for your son more then you do.
Go die man.
You fucking bastard.
Went back to centre and played a few rounds of pool.
After that went to get some bbq stuff that we didn't buy yesterday.
Guess what?
We start the bbq at 10pm.
LOL.
Sorry Cheechuan and Xiaopang for letting you two to wait for us for like hours.
But thanks for attending!
The sad news is coming.
Around 12.30am , police came screen us.
And baby's 11b was taken by the police.
Suddenly, I felt something bad's gonna happen.
Sigh.
Expected, baby was charge for awol and has been brought back to HQ.
Sigh!
Cried out after I saw him being handcuff.
But he didn't know that I cried.
If not he will be sad too.
Thanks cheechuan& monkey for counselling me uh.
I felt better after that!
And people, I'm going to genting this june!
But it's just a maybe.
LOL.

Baby, I promised you to take care of
myself and wait for you.
I will fulfill this promise I made
to you.
Take good care while you're
inside.
And don't worry bout
me.
I will be fine.
Don't forget bout your
promise!
Genting trip this july and of course
go rounding!
I will got get the helmet before you
come out and wait for you.

Sigh.

Signing off,
Esther.
I ♥ TanZhenYuan.
Yuanyuan baby, I'll wait for you.

x3 my yuanyuan.

2010-04-26T13:14:00.000-07:00

Hello earthling!
I'm back.
Had been staying at baby's house for like (hmm.. Let me think..) one week plus?
Everyday go 131 meet cheechuan and Liangwei.
After that confirm go block 6.
Two days ago, I got a JRT x Beagle name chocolate.
But due to her activeness and big size, I gave it up for adoption.
Sigh.
Miss her damn lots.
Bii ah, since you don't like big breed, let's get a chihuahua then.
Haha.
Can put in carrier and go rounding.
Haha!
Baby is going to surrender this Saturday.
Sigh.
And he says before he go in, he's going to open a BBQ to celebrate out first monthsary in advance.
It will be held this Friday at block 8.
Sigh.
Should I feel happy or sad?
Gotta go sleep already.
Baby's nagging me.
Saying that it's 4.30am already I'm still awake.
-.-
Chevron tmr to get my army shorts.
Yipee!
Nights people!!

Signing off,
Esther.
x3 yuanyuan.

Baby, don't forget the promise you gave me.
I'll wait for you no matter what.
TanZhenYuan, you're mine!

Rawr!

2010-04-21T02:42:00.000-07:00

Hello humans!
This few days kept on going to 131 then after that went to blk 6 to slack.
Haha.
And it's like doing the same things over and over.
And baby's gonna get me a bike helmet so we can go rounding!
Haha.
And I am going back to Siling Secondary for further studies.
Baby, don't forget what you promise me hor!
Fetch me everyday uh.
Sigh.
Don't know when he's going to surrender.
After that, everything will turn to what it's like before we were together.
Sigh.
Just a short update to revive my blog.
Bye peeps.
Gotta go bath and prepare to go out already.
If not he's gonna nag and nag and nag me already.
haha.

Signing off,
EstherLQE ♥ TanZhenYuan.

Back to update :D

2010-04-18T00:09:00.000-07:00

Spot the shadow. And notice the green light.

Otw to geylang ♥

TZY ♥

Air-conditioned toilet ♥

I ♥ to move it, move it. You like to, MOVE IT!

Madagascar ♥

KungFu Panda! ♥

Woody The Woodpecker. ♥

Hello earthlings!

I finally got the time to update my dead blog already.

Had ran away from home for like around 4 days. (hmm...)

Went out on thursday and till now haven't even go back.

And my mom just reported the police.

But they cannot take action cause I am above 16.

Haha.

Went to the Universal Studios again on Friday with zhenyuan, liangwei and one of liangwei's friend.

It's fun!

Managed to get a photo shoot with the Woody Woodpecker and also KungFu Panda!

After that went down geylang and get my contact solutions from hebrews.

Thon the whole day at geylang and something happened.

Reached woodlands at 9am.

Slept till night 9pm then went Causeway Point.

After that went Block 6 to find Chee Chuan and slack.

In the middle of the night we suddenly talked bout G-H-O-S-T.

And we saw a tortise crawl past.

After that I took pity of the tortise and brought him somewhere near the grass.

But then liangwei went to flip it and let it land on his back.

After ten minutes we turned back, it's GONE!

OMG!

It really freak us out.

Nobody walk past us and we couldn't even find that tortise around that area.

Oh god.

And I saw one of the photo I took that day at geylang, got a shadow inside.

I thought it might be my camera's fault.

But then the picture showed that my camera got green light.

And and and, my camera only have a redish orange light besides the flashlight.

So, it's completely I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E for it to have green light.

Creepy uh.

Yucks.

Think I am gonan stop here.

Needa go bath and head down to Causeway.

If not someone is going to say I am wasting time again.

HAHA.

And he promised to bring me for a ride today.

Hope he won't break his promise again :D

Bye peeps!

ES THER.

Baby, I ♥ You.

Universal Studio.

2010-04-10T12:48:00.000-07:00

Hello earthling!
To those who are concern about my last post, I am fine.
I am just being make used by somebody.
And I don't really care bout that.
Haha.
So don't worry bout me.
Met Zhenyuan at 9.40am today at Boots & Shoes cause we were going to Escape Theme Park.
And I'm sorry for being late 10 mins.
Lol.
Took bus 161 to sengkang then transfer to 89 to downtown east.
Reached Downtown East and realise that Escape Theme Park got nothing to play.
So me and his friend, Liangwei, suggested to go Resort World Sentosa's Universal Studio.
And he agreed.
Yay!
Cab-ed there and that fella's sleeping inside the cab.
Lol.
Shake him up twice then he realise we had reached Sentosa already.
Went to Universal Studio and our first ride was, The mummy return's indoor roller coaster.
And that idiot say what he's afraid of height blahblahblah etcetcetc.
So I just dragged him in.
Leaving him no choice, he was forced to take that ride.
Haha!
That ride was fun!
People who are going there should try this.
Haha.
Went to play Jurassic Park's Rapids Adventure but then faulty.
Went for our smoke break and headed for lunch.
And they eventually ordered a 20 Inch Hawaiian Pizza.
Idiot lor.
It's like so big. -.-
Went to play Accelerator after our lunch.
Went to the Far Far Away Castle to view our 4D movie.
It's fun!
Finally till 5pm, the Jurassic Park's Rapids Adventurue is re-open.
Queued for one and a half hour finally we got the chance to play.
Thanks Zhenyuan for getting me the Donkey Ears and also paying for my expenses.
And don't forget you promised to bring me there again next month!
Haha!
Cab-ed back woodlands at 8pm and reached woodlands at 9pm.
And both me and Zhenyuan slept till like pig till Liangwei gotta wake him up to tell the taxi-driver the exact route.
-.-
And I didn't realize I fall till I lean on his shoulder and sleep.
Haha.
S-o-r-r-y uh.
Not purposely make till your neck cramp de.
:P
Slack outside my house gate till around 12am then he left.
And I took one of his ring causes it's beautiful.
After he left, I suddenly feel so sick.
Fever, Sore Throat and Whole body ache.
If later really buay tahan jiu go hospital liaos.
And that idiot say accompany me sms till he don't know die where already.
I am like so sick and he's downthere sleeping I think.
Shit him.
-.-

Bye humans,
Esther. x3

Nightlife, dogs are barkless and humans had all shut the fuck up.

2010-04-07T13:47:00.001-07:00

Hi world!

The pictures on top are all found from a website.

And it doesn't know means that I am e-m-o.

Cause I've got nothing to post and doesn't want my blog to be dead.

So this morning woke up at around 1pm and have been texting on phone till 4pm.

Went to Civic centre to get my electricity topped up.

Went shengshiong after that to get all the dinner stuff.

Was texting on phone from morning till 12am, and that's the only thing I've got to do.

And ahhua's lappy was on for more than 48 hours.

It's gonna break down one day.

HAHA!

Think back of my life, I felt that I was stupid.

People had been making use of me and I didn't even realise till now.

OMG.

My brain must be rusty already.

Sometimes human should not be over proud.

Cause this will causes people to get negative thinking of them.

And I believe in karma.

What happened to me will always turn in to retribution to those people who done that.

I dont't have to ask for any sympathy.

Cause I think that those people needs attention and sympathy more then I do.

I only had brokened relationship.

Thats all.

Which human being won't have a brokened relationship before?

It's just that those dates can be a memorable date.

What happened had already happened.

And the stupidest thing in world is when a girl cannot live without a guy.

And I don't think I'm one of them.

So, if any idiots would want to comment me, can just say it on my face.

And I don't really give a damn on those over proud people.

I can lead a good life without guys and friends.

Cause they won't be with you forever.

The only one that will be with you forever is kinship.

So those idiots who thinks that they can live without their family members is an idiot.

Although I keep saying him, but which idiot can forget a 4 years relationship.

And I bet only heartless people or in fact over prouded people can do that.

Nights world.

Esther.

3 Easiest way to die.

2010-03-31T12:18:00.000-07:00

Hello Peeps!
The picture above is dedicated to my sist, ChanChan.
Cheer up :D

And for this picture, it best describe me.
I have done the first one and the third one.
I've been loving someone who doesn't even bother that did I ever exist or not.
And that's heart breaking.
Forget about all these.
Woke up at 2pm today and accompanied my mum down to Singapore General Hospital for some thing.
Brought Xavier down and he's like, OMG, gai gai again :D
haha.
Stayed there for 6 hours and I'm starving.
Keep went to the snack machine and grab some snacks and my mum keep say that I am a greedy girl.
Lol.
Bought a swiss roll for boyboy and he cried when we told him, No more!
HAHA!
Should video down and shared with you guys.
You guys will laugh till you fall off the chair.
But I must admit, he's adorable.
Haha!
Reach woodlands at 11pm.
Met ChanChan at lan and went rasa rasa to pack food.
I met my mom there again and I asked her to bring back the food first.
Went chit chatting under my void deck till 12am and joyce came.
Came up as my house as I borrowed my mum's almost new shoe to ChanChan.
Haha!
Clubbing tomorrow!
OMG!
Excited~
haha.
And good luck for another interview tomorrow.
Goodnight world!

ESTHER, Have you ever noticed me?

Hi peeps!

2010-03-29T11:56:00.001-07:00

Just a short update before I go to bed.
Brougt Xavier for his jabs done today.
Met Diana at causeway for something.
And when I was smoking before bus-ing home, I saw Leslie.
That fella at least still got heart to say hello to me.
Met mummy at centre to get some stuff.
And it's raining heavily.
And she brought umbrella down for me.
So sweet of her :*
Went home after that and had my all-in-one meal again.
Haha!
Met Ahboy, ChanChan& Ahjoy at 7pm under Chan's house void deck.
Was raining heavily that time.
And a big THANKS to Ahboy& Kenglong for getting us umbrella.
Went to Woodlands Point after that before they head over to Hawker centre to have their dinner.
After their dinner we head back to Woodlands Point.
Me, ChanChan& Ahjoy was acting retardly outside of LAN shop.
Head over to my house void deck and slack awhile before everyone says Goodbye.
Ajoy went to look for ahlim while the rest of us remain there and slack awhile.
After that, HOME SWEET HOME!
And was so happy that my mama cook supper for me to eat.
Thanks mum, it was so sweet of you (:
On lappy and was using from 1am til now.
Think really gotta go sleep already.
Goodnight world!

Esther, Love is a battlefield.

Nights world.

2010-03-28T12:55:00.000-07:00

HELLO WORLD!

Just to make a quick post before I went to bed.

Went to Woodlands Point and meet Steven today afternoon.

Played billard with chanchan, steven & zhengyuan.

Guess what?

A noob like me won them by luck.

haha!

And steven is like so pathetic.

Chan left the game halfway and her score is higher then him.

LOL.

My score was 27, Zhengyuan's was 13, Chan was 4, and Steven 2.

-.-

After that, went toilet and found out some people sniffing glue inside the first cubicle.

Told the Security Guard about it and we thought that he would report to the police.

But, because one of them was only Sec 1 so he let them go.

Wth. -.-

Went to Suntec after that and was going crazy with ChanChan :X

After Suntec was Bugis.

Met sha awhile and we headed home.

Finally, home is always the best :D

Ate my "all in one" (breakfast, lunch& dinner) meal and was so satisfied.

And my mum exchanged her bed with me!

So sweet of her! :*

Went down to slack with Wenbin, Hebrews and the two KL.

Joyce join us later on and all was chit chatting.

Just reach home not long ago and I'm offing to my bed peeps!

Gotta reach Polyclinic by 12pm tomorrow for Xaiver's vaccination.

My poor boy gotta suffer again. ):

But it's for his health.

So gotta bear with it.

haha!

Goodnight world!

ES THER :D

Love is friendship set on fire.

2010-03-27T12:08:00.000-07:00

"I'm gonna smile like nothing's
wrong, Talk like everything is perfect, Act like
it's just a dream, And pretend that he's not hurting me."

There's a hidden word behind the quote above.

Just a few quotes to share with you guys.

Cause I feel that quotes best explained me.

I need some suggestion.

Should I remain on blogger or switch to onsugar?

Haha.

Nights world.

ES THER ; x3

Quick update.

2010-03-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

Just a quick update using Aaron's letter to prevent my blog from dying.
Belows are exactly words by words that are type out from Aaron's letter.

Today is 02/03/2010,writing this letter to alot of people. I going to sentence at 12/03/2010 and so you all no need reply!

TO GIRLS FIRST!
SHUQI; Hello, I don't know write what to you so anyway takecare x3
ESTHER; How your baby le? Got more hair than me?! Work hard! Auntie =X
JOYCEE; Got grow taller? Last long ass!
MEIMEI; Sorry, didn't attend your wedding! Last Long! BELLA; Hello good friend! No quarrels, no lagness! =)
REGINA (LADY BOSS); When I am out, bring me go sing K!
TO GUYS!
OEVIN: Don't put so much tattoo, save money! Takecare Bro!
RAY; Last long with your GF! Come out challenge arm wrestling!
JEFF; Don't everytime play dota! Find one girl and settle down 木头人!
ZIHAO; Hongster, how you doing? Takecare inside NS.
MATTHEW; Ahgua, train fitter inside! Treat hebrews & Esther well!
HEBREWS; Don't everytime play game! Go study.
WEISHENG; Study hard, don't smoke so much!
SHIET KIAT; Hello vergetarian, excercise more.
AHBOI; Work & Study hard. Don't find any trouble bro! X.Drea & Lizhen =X
ZHIHUA; Work hard dude! Sing with you when I'm out!
YUAN; Eat less, excercise more! YANGYANG; Don't tolerate girls too much! Seeya soon.
KIANLEONG; Study hard! Takecare.
KAI; Don't smoke too much! Find a job~ =)
Any names not mention above because got no space already. Takecare all & Happy belated Chinese New Year! All da best in everything you all do. Give my brother or my dad a call to know what I had sentence! Miss the days that I spend with everyone.
Yours Sincerly ; Aaron x3
Haha! This is what he wrote. Haha!
And I saw this touching video at Richie's Facebook Profile.
So sad. ):
http://www.facebook.com/search/?q=ric&init=quick#!/video/video.php?v=1219994465851&ref=mf
Signing off,
ES THER x3

Morons.

2010-03-17T11:47:00.000-07:00

Hi people!
I just feel so bored so I came to stop my blog from dying.
Went ROMP V on monday night and it's liek so shiok!
Haha!
And tomorrow's going COUP @ POWERHOUSE!
Oh god.
And anybody wanna buy tickets?!
Cause I'm selling.
Laugh out loud.
And out of a sudden I feel so pissed off after that whole bunch of moron ruined my life.
They must be saying that I am 奸女人 or in fact slut again.
Nevermind.
Let them say.
Cause they're a bunch of un-educated and illiterate morons.
They ruined my life and I'm gonna ruin his life back.
Xavier will be having two surname in his brith certificate.
Mine goes first then that bastard's surname.
And I have already reported to the police that they purposely kept the birth certificate.
So, I'm gonna apply for Xavier's maintenance fee.
One month at least $400.
If not, I am gonna ruin his life by letting him go to the jail.
Since he's family like to ruin my life.
Haha!
Ok.
I needa rest le.
Tomorrow gotta interview for work and also COUP in the night! Woohoo!

ES THER ; ***** I x3 You.

YAWN!

2010-03-13T03:41:00.000-08:00

Hello people!
Recently almost everyday was staying at home.
Yesterday went jogging in the night I'm look so god damn retard.
Before jogging something happened.
And I don't wish to rake up.
Haha!
Went to block 2 to meet Oevin & Dave.
After that started jogging.
And me and ling couldn't find them while jogging, so we just walk & walk & walk.
We even went 7-eleven buying drinks.
Haha!
After that went back to block 2 meet them.
Then we were all like talking rubbish there.
Slack at a mini fitness corner beside block 10.
And don't know why, suddenly we started saying ghost story.
haha!
And my bloody phone is running out of battery.
After that they went to eat beancurd and you tiao.
And I vomitted out everything I ate.
I think my gastric must be having problem already.
Laugh out loud.
Reach home at around 6.30am.
And I slept till noon then wake up.
Haha!
And I'm really bored.
Need people to entertain me NOW!

ES THER ; 我很想跟他告白, 可是我就是没勇气跟他说.

我很想爱他 ):

2010-03-08T23:27:00.000-08:00

Hello people!

This few days all at home rotting.

And I've been like watching tv from morning till night go down have my breakfast + lunch + dinner.

Oh gosh.

Have been texting somebody this few days.

Thanks for your "Great" entertainment.

Haha!

Hmm.

Why is guys all so weird de?

They always tells girl not to get the wrong idea.

But yet, they always do things to make girl got the wrong idea.

Then when the girl confess to him, he will like hide away from her like never contact her all these.

It's like, argh.

So un-gentleman of them.

请告诉我爱上你是一个错.

I had been telling myself to stop all those nonsence I'm doing.

Wake up esther, it's impossible between you and him.

So get that wrong thinking of you out of your fu.cking head.

ARGH!

我很想爱他，但是眼睛在说谎。隐瞒比较容易吗？

Stop saying about this.

I should be giving up then thinking of all this.

Yesterday actually gonna watch Alice In Wonderland 3D de.

In the end no tickets.

So try our luck today.

And guess what?

We got the tickets!

So having a debit Visa card was never a wrong thing (:

Just so hope that watching movie was with him.

But it's I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E.

So, I gotta make the thinking of mine fade off faster, real fast.

And my dear Xavier is sleeping with me for the past two days.

And my bed is like so small already.

Lol.

And my mum is like giving me attitude everyday.

Shit them man.

Yawn.

Think I stoping here already.

Hmm.

Tomorrow or what still need go report lost of Xavier's birth cert.

Then go ICA get a replacement one.

Then still gotta inform them that if anyone happens to use his birth cert please authorize it.

Maybe changing away his birth cert number will be better.

Then I think those people can't do anything with his original birth cert also.

I really don't get it leh.

For what they wanna keep sia.

Ask him come out talk bout Xavier's stuff in the end no reply and don't want come out.

Oh gosh.

Let me think..

Don't want this son still keep his brith cert.

I must becareful with all these "dangerous" people.

Just in case one day they go crazy and snatch Xavier.

Oh god.

And ya, Xavier's surname will soon change to LIM.

No longer that useless dad of his de surname le.

If I were Xavier, when I grow up I also no face lor.

The surname happened to be a useless bum de surname.

And he's surname is that.

Oh god.

Yawn.

Gotta go prepare.

Movie tonight!

ES THER ; 爱上一个不该爱的人.

Hello.

2010-03-04T10:18:00.000-08:00

Hi people.
Today was just a normal day for me.
Slept at 5.30am in the night and woke up in the morning.
Haha!
And Xavier love his new walker.
And its in greeeeeeen.
LOL!
And he's so relaxing.
Every night sleep in air con room.
Relax sia.
Haha.
Went to training in the night and went to eat afterwards.
And Lewis brought my stuff to C.C .
And Xavier's birth certificate is not inside.
And the answer I get is don't have.
And its like fu.cking obvious they kept it.
Cause my mum told me they complain to MCYS say what my mum is ill and can't look after Xavier.
Then still say we cannot financially support this baby.
Eh fu.cker, let me tell you.
Your house then cannot afford lah hor.
Don't look down people when you are also not born in those wealthy family.
At least my house can afford things that you guys don't wanna give it to Xavier like walker all these.
And both me and Xavier is happy here.
So stop bothering our life by complaining to people.
Don't forget, we haven't R.O.M yet.
So shut the fu.ck up and go get a life lah.
Jealous that I can live happier after leaving your house right?
No need jealous de.
Want kids?
Go find other girl lor.
See which bloody dumb girl suay lor.
Hmm.
Stop saying bout this.
Spoil my mood.
-.-
At coffee shop eat with Senior and Coach they all.
Talking and chit chatting and that Chan accidentally hit the table and my fishball soup spilled out.
Shyt her man.
After that coach came and ask me why that fu.cker wanna leave cc.
So I told him what that fu.cker told me before.
And coach asked me still got who following him to other troupe.
And I replied, Lewis also going.
After that coach called him and talk alot of things to him (Which I don't even care or bother).
Then ahboy, kl, sk, hebrews, ws, kai, oevin, and richie sat down there listening to Hong Cang say story.
Like meeting like that, so drama -.-
After that "meeting", Coach wanted to go home already.
So everyone left.
And thanks Richie for that ride.
Haha!
Cause I took a big bag of stuff and the plastic was already torn.
-.-
Went to Chan's house downstair fetch her as she's coming to my house to overnight.
Used lappy to view people's blog and finally it's my turn to use the computer.
Laugh Out Loud.
And now I'm gonna tuck in my cosy bed and sleep already.
Goodbye people.

ES THER x/3

My feelings now.

2010-03-02T11:03:00.000-08:00

我睁开眼睛
却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半
莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想
时间变得更漫长
也与你有关
否则又开始胡思乱想
我日月无光
忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈
其实全帮不上忙
以为会习惯
有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上
现在空了一个地方
原来爱情这么伤
比想像中还难
泪水总是不听话
幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强
道理全是一样
说的时候很简单
爱上后却正巧打乱
只想变得坚强
强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤
只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤
原来爱情是这样
这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干
瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完
思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样
x/----------------3

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
我们都忘了
心中是清楚的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
谁还记得
以前的一句话
过了太久
我和你手牵手
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
走的太远
是不是你和我
谁还记得
以前的一句话
过了太久
我和你手牵手
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

I'm like so emo now.
My feelings are at the top of the post.
The first lyrics.
I'm like damn confused now.
Smiling and crying.
Am I starting to regret?
I don't know.
Nobody actually understand me now.
I always pretend to be happy.
But actually I'm not.
What am I really thinking now?
Seriously I don't know.
I very stress now.
I need someone who can understand my feelings and talk to me.
I've been trying alot of ways and even finding things to make the time goes faster.
But I think I still haven't find any ways.
Can anyone tell me eventually what am I thinking?
What I was hoping for?
Feel like just jump down and everything will be solve.
But thought back, if I just jump down, Xavier will have no more next-of-kin.
He'll be all alone.
I can't just throw him alone.
Can any one tell me what should I do?
Can anyone be my listening ear and lend me their shoulder?
Anyone?
Seeing people so happy and having fun.
I want to join them and make myself happier.
But I just can't.
I really don't feel like coming home.
But it's a fact.
I'm the one who walk out of his world.
I'm the one who should be responsible for landing Xavier in such a state.
Everything just turn out to be my fault.
Can anyone just help me?
End up my life please.
I really cannot take it anymore.
It's killing me.
Oh god, if you wanna take my life away, just take it.
Can you stop suffering me?
I really cannot take it anymore.
If only anyone can understand my feelings now.
I seriously need a close friend to talk to.

ES THER x/ heartbroken 3

Single & Free.

2010-03-02T01:14:00.000-08:00

Hello people!
I'm like so confused now.
Don't know to be happy or sad.
But for what I know is I'm SINGLE& FREE from that useless and heartless fella.
Yesterday alot of thing happened.
Just because I wrote down my feelings and post at Facebook, conflict happened.
They always tell me, If you never did anything wrong, you don't have to be afraid of what people say.
Same goes to them, if they did not did anything wrong, they shouldn't be so angry when I post it.
It's my own freedom and my own privacy leh.
Are they trying to tell me I got no freedom to post whatever I want?
Felt so angry after that.
So I packed everything and brought Xavier back to my mum's place.
And that fella still seems so happy after me and Xavier left.
You guys must be thinking so heartless right?
He still got the mood to play computer somemore.
Haha!
Maybe I'm the fool all the way.
So stupid to do all those.
Even when I get scolded he'll just stand there.
My friends asked me two question; Have you ever regret on marrying him? Have you regret on leaving him?
My answer to them was, I don't know.
The answer forever will be I don't know.
To you guys he looks like those that dote wife alot de.
Yes, only in the past.
Present him is no longer like this.
He put his family more important then me and my boy.
So I think no point for me to stay down there le bah.
Let me tell you guys what I post on my facebook.
Saturday afternoon, I sat down at the sofa there for about half an hour.
And nobody eventually came and asked me to mop the floor.
Untill I fell asleep then they woke me up and asked me to mop the floor.
What's all this rubbish?
It's like so obvious they doesn't want me to sleep.
Still say till very obvious what wanna asked me bring my dog back to my mum's place.
So I told them, if my dog have to go, I will bring my son and leave together with my dogs and hamster.
To me, my dogs are my child too.
It's very irresponsible to give them away after you had a child.
And I promised my dogs I won't do that.
So I was like so angry and left his place.
Finally I left that place.
Then I remembered I forgot to take my clothes that are still washing and the CD I rented.
So I message that heartless fella and asked him to pass me during this coming thursday's training.
Guess what that heartless fella say?
He say, if I don't go and collect, he would throw all my stuff.
Believe me people.
If he dare throw my stuff, I'll make sure I call the police.
And they told me that they lost Xavier's Birth Certificate.
But I remembered vividly, I last saw it was at his mom's room.
So I suspect they kept it.
But it's ok.
I can always replace it.
And I asked them to keep Xavier's bed, they purposely take hammer out as if they really don't know how to dismend it.
To me, it's ok.
I can always replace a new one.
And by the way people, Xavier is going to childcare centre soon.
At there he will get to know new friends and also adapt to a new environment.
And i'll be going to look for a new job.
Cause that heartless fella asked me to resign.
After I resign then all this problem happened.
But it's ok.
At least I'm free now.
I can post whatever I like and nobody got the right to stop me.
Cause I'm not blabbering rubbish here.
Haha!
Gotta go Sheng Shiong and replace Xavier's cradle.
See ya people!

ES THER x/ heartbroken 3

Hello.

2010-02-27T05:53:00.000-08:00

Hello people.
I finally unprivate my blog yea.
Haha!
And in my last post I was saying to aim for an iPhone 3Gs.
And yes people, I got it.
A million thanks to my brother, Matthew, for getting me that phone.
And recently I had cut my frindge in to bangs.
And I look like an umbrella.
OMG.
And by the way, this is just a short post to update people that my blog is unprivated. (:

ES THER ♥

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010!

2010-01-06T22:00:00.000-08:00

Hi guys!
Finally get to update my blog.
Life for me now is like everyday wake up bath, brush teeth, go work.
After work, slack with diana and went home.
Simple life.
haha!
Got my pay and it was like fu.cking less.
And I am getting a new phone tomorrow!
Aiming for iPhone 16gb.
Hope I will get it.
Haha!
New year, new environment, new life, new faces.
Haha!
And I am getting a hammie.
Customer give de.
haha.
Work there not bad.
Still got customer give me hammie.
Haha!
And soon, I am really gonna be a zoo keeper.
With dogs and hammie.
Lucky no rabbit.
If not die more jialat.
Customer wanted to gave me her netherland dwarf.
But, I declined.
If not I really will go crazy.

HAHA!

I am

like damn bored after getting a job.
Cause its like everyday is doing the same thing.
But what to do?
Earning for a living what.
Haha!
Stop here already.
Later going watch movie.
Cause got to use up the free ticket from safra.
If not wasted.
haha.
Bye guys!

ES THER <3

Congrats me on finding a new job!

2009-12-22T02:51:00.000-08:00

H-E-L-L-O!
Finally I can update my blog already.
And my blog is like fu.cking rot.
Currently at Geylang Lan Shop now.
And people, I got a job already!
Yesterday went to K.K hospital to collect Xavier's calligraphy brush.
After that bus-ed to geylang.
Haha.
Then around 8.30pm jiu leave le.
Cause baby's parent say by 10pm got to reach home. -.-
Go back le in the end got problem again.
But solved already.
Then I told his mum say I today come out work.
Then they let me come out.
Haha.
Later 8.30pm going off again.
Tomorrow got to start work le.
But working at CWP, so I think won't so rush bah.
Haha.
1pm start work and end at 10pm.
Christmas burn liaos.
Sadded. ):
And baby's birthday is coming already.
1 more days to go.
But too bad, I got no money to buy baby a cake. ):
Tomorrow start work and I can get pay on New Years Day.
Haha!
Damn happy man.
But then jiu cannot keep go out already.
K, think I stop here le.
Bye guys!
Good luck for my work tomorrow.

Signing off,
ES THER (:

Stupid blogger.

2009-12-13T22:35:00.000-08:00

Ok, firstly, H-EE-L-L-OH!
Hello guys!
Really don't know what to update.
Actually wanna post Pictures, but don't know why I was unable to do it.
Read the title of my post and you will get it.
And my stupid bed is infected with bedbugs!
OMGOMG!
Think I stop here first.
(Cause feeding my boy drink milkmilk then got no hand to type much(: )
Bye all!
And by the way, I am trying to sell out all my plush toys.
All toy are only getable by UFO Machines!
If anyones wants to buy, mail me!

Signing off,
ES THER♥

Another miserable and depressed day.

2009-12-03T08:48:00.000-08:00

Hello guys..
Today I really got no mood to post happy things.
Cause there's no happy things today!
Only sad things.
Yesterday night alot of thing happened.
Shall not rake it ro prevent my mood get more worse.
Woke up at 12pm.
Prepared everything and left the house at 1.30pm.
Heading to K.K Hospital for my Post Natal Follow Up.
Bought Viceroy Menthol Light before going to take bus.
Received a message from Xiuling Sist saying that she at polyclinic.
Head over there to pass her cigg.
And Jamain Sist was there too.
Smoke one stick and then waved goodbye to them and off to K.K Hospital.
Got on the bus and received a call from baby saying that his dad saw me smoking.
I was thinking ( Wtf? Its like impossible. ) I don't give a damn man.
Listen to my iPod and all was sad song.
Reached K.K Hospital at 3pm. (I am late 30mins -.- )
Received a call from mum. (Baby called mum and complain.)
Went to training after that.
Mum came and make a big fuss.
Haiis.
My life is in a miserable status.
I already don't know what's Happiness.
And I already don't know what is freedom.
The only word in my dictionary is Miserable.
I really don't know what I do then they will feel satisfied.
Now tell me I got to look after Xavier myself.
And nobody's gonna help me.
Sometimes I really feel like giving up.
I really don't know what else can make me feel happy again.
Felt like my friend had already left me.
I am all alone again.
Fxck stress man.
Haiis.

Signing off,
ES THER.

Quick Update (:

2009-11-28T08:52:00.000-08:00

H-EE-L-L-OH!
HELLO!
Just a quick post for this few days to prevent my blog from rotting.
LOL -.-
Lets start from thursday.
Woke up around (hmm.. let me recall..) 6.30pm?
Cause I remember baby just reached home.
HAHA!
The only day I slept till so late.
Cause that day got minor flu and I asked aby's mum to helped me look after Xavier.
(Thanks to that idiot dumb duck that keep sneeze without covering his mouth and causing germs to roam around my room. -.-)
Went to bath and wash Xavier clothes and prepared to go for training.
OMFG.
I was like so god damn long never went for training already.
Reached there at around 9pm and they just started doing warming up -.-
After training went to the coffee shop located at woodlands centre with coach to have our SUPPER!
Sit down, chit chat and I was like so odd one out.
Last time whenever they go for smoking break I will be there smoking with them.
But now, I quit smoking.
So didn't went for smoking break with them.
After that baby, xiaohei and sze ying went up my house and I went to lan shop.
Baby went to take kor's lappy for me while xiaohei & szeying went up to see Jasper and Tipsy.
Correct, Jasper and Tipsy is now staying at my house for some reasons.
Went to woodlands point and both my sist, xiuling & joyce went to play pool.
The auntie there was like OMG! how long never saw me already.
Went down to lan shop with my sist to see X.Drea's blog.
Cause joyce said that she read X.Drea's blog and found out that they went to Old Kranji Estate for some sort of Ghost Exploring.
Read X.Drea's blog and saw those picture she took at the estate.
It was really spooking I admit.
After that went to bus stop to meet baby they all and then, HOME SWEET HOME.
Yesterday baby don't have to go back to camp because it's a Public Holiday.
Actually going to Cineleisure with xiuling sist but I slept till 4+pm.
Sorry sist!
On lappy and start mapling.
And yes, guys I am back to Maple!
Played maple for one whole day and looking after Xavier because both baby's parent don't know go where.
And Xavier got a bit of slight fever yesterday night.
My poor boy, got to stick the fever patch on his head.
And he really thinks that the fever patch was a nice accesory for him. -.-
Baby & I took turns to look after Xavier while mapling.
Pro right?
HAHA!
This is call multi tasked.
Both of us mapled and look after Xavier till around this morning 6+am then we fell asleep.
Woke up at 1pm in the noon today and look after Xavier.
Went out at around 5pm.
Headed to yishun because I wanted to get kor's lappy wrapped up.
But guess what, the price was like OMFG! expensive.
$89 for the normal wrapping and if I wanna wrapped up with disney design, I got to pay another $9-$10+.
Walked around Yishun neighbourhood and went to see 2nd hand handphones.
Asked around the price for Samsung F480 because I really like that phone.
Hmm, I need some suggestion.
Samsung F480 better or should I get Nokia 5800 XpressMusic?
Cause I prefer touch screen phone.
Went over to Yishun MRT to buy the NETSFlashPay Card for baby.
And thats when we realised our $30+ -$40 gone missing.
I was like, WTF? How can the money get lost when its in baby's pouch all day long.
Nevermind.
Consider that I am on bad luck today then.
Head over to Suntec after that.
Took the last 960 from Esplanade and head home.
I just reached home in about 5-15mins time.
Stopping here.

Signning off,
ES THER.

Xavier's first checkup and haircut.

2009-11-20T05:24:00.000-08:00

Hello peeps!
Yesterday was Xavier's first checkup.
Reached KK Hospital at 12.30pm and his appointment time was 12pm.
LOL.
After registrating for him, we went over to Room 1 to queue and wait to do blood test for Xavier.
And my brave boy only cried when the needle poke in.
When they trying to squeeze his blood out, he didn't make a single noise.
Brave right?
After that the nurse told me that we got to wait for two hour for the blood test result to be ready.
Brought Xavier to do a caligraphy brush using his hair and had his first haircut.
Haha.
So Xavier's now botak.
Haha.
After that went to Mcdonalds to have our lunch.
Bought two hat for Xavier because he's shy.
After that went back to see his report.
After everything we went over to Bugis Junction to find Tom kor.
Went to newbie and saw two polo tee.
But too bad.
Got baby's size but not my size.
So didn't buy anything there.
After that cab home cause its raining.
Reached home rest awhile jiu have my dinner.
After dinner,went to take 856 to go to training.
OMFG!
I am like don't know how long never go lion dance le.
Damn miss coach man.
haha!
Reached there and found out that we got 4 junior.
2 girls and 2 guys.
LOL.
And the girls are like...
Don't know what to say.
Like to act cute infront of coach.
I don't understand why man.
Reached home at 11pm changed my clothes jiu went to bed.

Today woke up at 11am and help baby's mum to do housechores.
Ate my lunch at around 2pm.
After that his dad and mum went to Marsiling C.C to get food ration.
And I stayed home to look after Xavier.
Do some plastic jiu start mapling.
Baby reached home at around 6.15pm.
Fed Xavier at 6.45pm and ate my dinner at 7pm.
Went to rest awhile and woke up at 9pm to do some blogging.
Ok think I stop here le.
Bye guys.

Signing off,
ESTHER♥

Blog updated.

2009-11-16T05:50:00.000-08:00

Hello!
Saturday was Xavier's full month celebration.
Woke up very early to prepare lots of thing.
And I forgot to buy something important.
Paper plates. -.-
Dumb right?
Went to fetch baby's gan mei with him at opposite marsiling mrt station then shun bian go buy paper plates.
Then went to buy 4D and Scratch it.
Haha.
Then baby's gan mei win liao keep exchange for the scratch it card.
Like addicted like that.
LOL!
Went back home after that cause Xiuling called me and told me that she arrived.
Walked back and meet sist at baby's house void deck.
Met Qiming jie , Xiuling sist and Wenbin and went up together.
Damn lots of people.
LOL!
Party end at around 7pm+ then help out clearing the stuff.
After that played mahjong with Tomkor, ahdom and jie ge.
Won $19.
Haha!
After that played maple awhile jiu went to sleep le.

Yesterday actually meeting baby's gan mei at 2.30pm.
But in the end we meet her at around 4pm.
LOL!
Brought Xavier to ION Orchard, Plaza Singapura and Marina Square.
He was so obedient for the whole day cause he just slept in the car without making any noise.
Went Marina Square to catch bear.
Caught Angel in Santaria Clothing and a Pooh Bear.
After that got conflict again.
Wtf.
Then slept at around 2am.
Woke up at around 4am to fed Xavier.
Then slept back after finish feeding him.
Woke up at 7am again to feed him again.
And went back to sleep again.
And baby today didn't went back to camp.
Cause he report sick.
Haha.
Went to Polyclinic at around 10+am.
Brought Xavier to have his Hepatitis B Vaccination done.
Lucky no need to pay cash.
Cause can use baby's cpf.
Haha.
One whole day didn't managed to use computer untill now.
LOL.
Tomorrow got to meet my mum at 10.20am and Civic Centre.
Maybe I am getting my digital camera tomorrow.
Hahas.
Stopping here le.
Bye all (:

Signing off,
ESTHER ♥

P.S. I am selling sega fun fan amuse soft toy. If anyone is interested tag me and tell me. I send you all those pictures of the toy that I am selling thru email (:

Sorry guys.

2009-11-10T07:05:00.000-08:00

This morning woke up at 10.30am to feed Xavier.
After that went back to my sleep till 5pm.
LOL!
First time sleep till so relax and no disturbance.
Haha.
After that went to eat my lunch plus breakfast plus dinner.
Then on computer.
Chat with Aaron and Xiuling sist awhile.

Sorry sist! Last minute got to go take things so didn't
managed to on webcam and let you see Xavier. Will find the webcam tonight and
try to let you see Xavier when you online.
And also sorry to Aaron for not onlining maple at the
time I told you.
So sorry to the both of you.

And by the way, told my sist that I will help her find a job.
Hope I really will managed to help her.
Went to Causeway point to pay baby's computer and bought a romper for Xavier.
Went to Kranji Mrt station after that.
Bought a skirt at This fashion.
Went to my ex-neighbour house after meeting my mum to get the electronic cradle and milk bottle steamer.
Reached home at 10am.
Just on computer and came to blog.
Think I will be going back to sleep again.
Bye all.

Signing off,
ESTHER♥
4 more days to Xavier's full month celebration.

God damn tired.

2009-11-09T07:26:00.000-08:00

Woked up at 9.50am because Xavier got hungry.
After feeding him, managed to sleep another 2 more hours.
Till 12pm he woke up again and this time round he seeks for attention.
Carried him out to the living room and leave him on the mattress.
Saw baby's dad using the computer to play the mahjong game.
Hah!
Played with Xavier untill lunch is ready.
By the time I finished my lunch its already 3pm.
Help out baby's mum to clear baby's cabinet.
Saw alot of stuff that brought my memory back.
Haha!
Played computer after clearing out all the stuff.
And heard baby's mum keep calling tomkor.
Cause its already 3.30pm and that fellow is still sleeping.
No choice, sleeping is the most relaxing thing in the world.
Haha.
Played computer awhile and baby's back.
Help out baby to do plastic work after having our dinner.
Watch the intcredible tales till 11pm and continued watching Land of the Lost.
Surf the net and use facebook till now.
While using facebook, I saw serene ng's wedding photo.
OMGOSH!
I am like so tempted to take.
Cause its so b-e-a-utiful!
Guess how much she took?
Its only around 3k ringgit (around $1.5k) for both outdoor and indoor photoshooting.
Its like half of the price in singapore!
Normally if take outdoor and indoor its like $3k+ at singapore.
Planning to take my wedding photo next year . ( with my new addition family member; Xavier)
Then it will be our family photo plus me and baby's wedding photo.
OMGOSH!
Feel like going to malaysia and get my wedding photo taken now.
Haha!
K guys, I will stopping here le.
Cause going down 7-eleven to get some stuff.
Bye guys!

Signing off,
ESTHER.
Counting down 5 more days to Xavier's full month celebration. (:

Tiring day.

2009-11-08T06:11:00.000-08:00

Yawn!
Another tiring day passed.
Whole day not at home today cause I went for my interview.
And good news for me.
I got a job!
Haha!
Although its part time. -.-
But at least can stay at home pei my boyboy.
Woke up at 10am and prepare for my interview.
Went out at 11am after bathing and had my breakfast.
Took 961 to kranji mrt station and changed to MRT.
Reached the interview place at around 12.30pm.
And my interview ends at 2+pm. -.-
Slow right?
Cause got to wait this and that.
LOL!
One week at least must work 22 hours and one hour is $6.
Actually wanna work full time.
But they told me 16 years old can only work part time.
So they put me as regular part time.
To me not bad uh.
Cause still got bonus to take.
Somemore because of Xavier I get another 54hours of unpaid leave.
Haha!
Cause he below 2years old and 7 years old.
Went jurong point walk walk with baby and his gan mei after my interview.
Went to star factory and baby got me a christmas stitch.
Thanks lots!
Haha!
Actually wanna go watch movie.
Cause we got free tickets (:
But too bad, none of the movies was to my liking.
And by the way, Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 is coming!
OMGOSH!
I confirmed will go and watch de.
Cause they are really cuteeeeee!
Haha!
Reached causeway point at around 7pm and went up to kiddy palace and metro to see whether there's any nice shirt to buy for Xavier.
After window shopping for Xavier's clothes, baby and me went to take 912 while baby's gan mei went to take MRT.
Buy a bottle of coke and just nice 912 was here.
Board the bus and guess what.
The bloody driver shout at me.
Say what I take student pass then dont want to top up take for what.
Might as well keep at home.
Idiot uhs.
Which law in Singapore stated that we must top up ez-link card to take bus?
Bloody ass.
Make me damn angry.
ARGH!
Reached home at 8pm and saw Xavier lying down on mattress at living room.
Sat down and rest awhile.
Then played with Xavier.
Help to do some plastic work while Xavier's drinking milk.
And now my precious boy slept already.
I also got to go sleep le.
And baby don't know why is giving attitude again.
Fxck!
Nevermind.

Bye guys!
Signing off,
ESTHER.
♥ Xavier Leon Xie Zhong Sheng.

One more week to Xavier's full month celebration.

2009-11-07T09:24:00.000-08:00

Hi all.
Finally baby's computer is back and the Internet is reconnect-ed.
But the bad things is the Internet sucks.
Cause its damn lag.
Currently using xiaohei's lappy to post.
Cause tomkor using desktop to watch Xia Dao Xiao.
Yesterday woke up around 10am.
As per normal went over to baby's mum room to see what's my boy doing.
After that went to brush my teeth and had my breakfast cum lunch.
Finished eating and heard Xavier crying for milk.
Fed him while using computer.
And this boy here is damn mischievous.
Purposely drink awhile then don't want to drink.
Then not even 5mins he asked for milk again.
LOL!
After feeding him then baby's waipo and ganma came.
Coax Xavier to sleep then went for bath.
Cause going Civic Centre to top-up the electricity and Causeway point to interview job.
Reach-ed home at around 4pm and saw Xavier drinking milk.
Awhile later I received baby's message asking me to go down and pay for his cab fare.
Cause baby sergeant gave us a baby walker and a baby high chair.
Went down to pay his cab fare and helped him to carry.
Came back home and ate my dinner.
Used computer again untill baby's parent, his ganma and waipo play mahjong.
Cause got to take care of Xavier myself le.
Then this boy keep don't want to lie down in his playpen.
Keep want people to carry him.
No choice uhs.
Carry him out to the living room.
Watch Xia Dao Xiao while carrying him.
Haha.
After the show, its Xavier meal time again.
Fed him and coax him to sleep after he finished his milk.
Went to bed at around 2am.
Cause they haven't finish playing mahjong and the sound was so loud untill Xavier can't sleep.
Today woke up at around 10am and saw Xavier drinking milk.
After he finished his milk, baby's mum brought him to bath.
Cause yesterday was rainning, so we didn't bath him.
After bathing him brought him to our bed.
Cause I was still in my sleepy mood. -.-
So is baby. -.-
Slept until 1pm when Xavier cried for his milk.
Brought him over to baby's mum and ask her to feed Xavier for us.
Cause I am really very tired.
Woke up at 2pm and had my lunch.
On the computer to help Xiaohei download maple.
At around 4, we went down to NTUC to buy 4d.
Haha.
After that went to NTUC to get some tidbits.
The good thing is we don't have to pay.
Cause baby's gan ma paid for us.
Haha! Thanks alot uhs.
Went back home and continue to download Maple Story.
Do some blog shopping while maple is downloading.
Used computer untill 8.30pm and fed Xavier.
After that went to sleep awhile.
Till 11am woke up and have my dinner.
Late right?
No choice, cause baby's mum didn't cook.
Say what no money.
Rubbish uh.
Just came back from 7-eleven.
Cause baby go down buy water. -.-
Now he's watching Seed of Chucky.
Still tell me he later want chiong maple. -.-
LOL.
Hmmm. Got to go sleep le.
Tomorrow still going to interview.
Cause I realy need a job.
If not confirm not enough money to survive. -.-

Bye guys!
Signing off,
ESTHER.

Updated (:

2009-11-04T09:23:00.000-08:00

Finally got internet to update my blog.
And of course a computer -.-
Haha.
Woke up by a call from courts.
Telling me that baby's computer is back from servicing and ask me when am I free next week.
Idiot.
Then I request to collect today.
Hang-ed the phone and went to brush my teeth.
Before that of course is go and see what my boy doing.
As usual, he's sleeping -.-
No choice, that's what baby do everyday beside drinking milk. -.-
Haha.
After brushing my teeth, ate my breakfast or should I say lunch?
Haha.
And boy's full month celebration is getting nearer.
Finally! Its a good thing for me.
Cause I can go out liaos.
No need wear long pants wherever I go -.-
Haha.
No pictures to update you guys about my boy.
Cause I got no camera. -.-
But he's doing very fine.
He started getting curious bout thing around him.
Especially the noise car makes, thunder and the water rattling sound (cause this few days keep rain.)
But the only sound he's afraid of is the sound make from banging door.
Cause those idiot that lived next to baby is inhuman.
We told them damn lots of time that Xavier is still small and ask them to cooperate with us not to bang door.
But the moment we say nia they bang loud loud and walk off as if we owe them.
What the hell man. They think they big f*ck man.
Idiot. Forget about it. Say le jiu spoil mood.
Haha. And he grow fatter -.-
Cause he increased his milk from 35ml to 70ml.
Obviously will grow fat right?
Somemore he drink 1 time every 3 hours.
Overall he drank 8 times of milk one day.
Around 540ml everyday.
But sometime he can drink more then 70ml.
Depends on how hungry is he.
Haha.
And this mischievous fellow doesn't wants to lie down on his own.
He want people to carry.
And he always chose my nap time to find people to carry him.
If nobody carrys him, he will open his "concert" and create a havoc.
Haha!
But to me, he's more important.
Thats why I sacrifice my nap time.
Haha.
Wei da lehs.
Haha!
But to other mummy I think they will do that too.
But he also will see I kelian then pei me take nap.
Then you will see two pig sleeping at my bed.
LOL!
Sometime he can be more mischievous.
Like playing prank on us.
Trying to lie to us say his hungry.
Give him milk then he sleep. LOL!
Plus he don't really like to sleep alone.
As in sleeping at his bed.
He rather sleep with me or baby's mum.
Haha.
Maybe he scare I alone sleep double bed will feel lonely.
So he pei me instead of his dad.
LOL!
Hmm.
Think I will be stopping here.
Cause its late.
Got to go sleep.
If not tomorrow no energy play with my boy.
Haha.
Will update when I got internet to use uhs.

Bye guys.
Signing off,
ES THER.
♥ Xavier Leon Xie Zhong Sheng (:

Updated (:

2009-10-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

Hello!
Back to update my blog le.
This few days keep go down KK hospital pei Xavier.
That mischeivous fellow still dontwant to learn how to drink milk from milk bottle.
Thats why can't discharge from hospital.
Damn miss my boy sia.
Somemore the nurse there like no patience one lurs.
Hope Xavier can faster learn how to drink milk jiu can come back home le.
Then I also won't have to worry till can't sleep.
Plus his daddy got to go back to camp.
Then the room so empty.
Saw his bed automatic will feel like crying.
Sian.
Think I stop here le.
Cause getting tired le :X
Will update when i get to use computer again.

Bye guys~

Signing off ,
ES THER.

Xavier♥

2009-10-19T08:26:00.000-07:00

Finally I came back to update (:
Thats Xavier Leon Xie Zhong Sheng.
He arrived on the 16 of October 2009 , Friday.
Actually he was suppose to arrive on 20th of november.
But this mischeivous fellow chose to see the world earlier. -.-
haha.
For more pictures of him can see at my friendster.
Currently he is still at hospital.
Cause the doctor say he dontknow how to drink milk from milk bottle.
But to me he's just too lazy to drink -.-
Cause when I fed him yesterday he can drink from milk bottle.
But the nurse keep tell me he dontwant.
Its like they got no patience to feed then dont want to admit. -.-
Hope he can discharge during this few days uh.
Miss him damn lot sia ):
Hmm .. Got to go rest already..
Backbone hurts damn lot ):

Takecare guys!

Signing Off ;
ES THER.

Finally updated :/

2009-07-22T07:55:00.000-07:00

Hello peeps!
I'm back to blogging already.
For the last weekend I really had great fun with xiuling sist.
Went to geylang LAN shop for 2 continuous night. Hah!

Saturday night went there with xiuling, joyce, ahlim, wenbin, wenqiu, xiaodi, stella & weiqiang.
Bus-ed to kallang mrt station and then cabb-ed there.
Stella went home first and she came at around 4++ when I was sleeping. -.-
Wenqiu, wenbin, weiqiang & xiaodi was like singing army song on the bus.
And alot of people got irritated especially the bus driver. Hah!
Then when we reached kallang mrt station, those 4 guys continue to play and joke around. -.-
Cabb-ed there with sist and wenbin. And wenbin was so kind to pay the cab fare. Hah!
Slack there and played com.
Around 3am sist ask me to look outside to the streets.
Guess what, alot of prostitutes was standing there waiting for customer.
I was like diao. So fierce sia. Guys walk pass them they just hook their hand and ask. OMFG sia.
Then went back in to lan.
Ordered hor fun with sist.
After that slacked, chitchat, play com and finally 7am!
As I said, 7am le those prostitues are still standing there waiting for customer.
I wonder if they are dumb or what.
Watch movie with sist and joyce using ppstream.
Then sudennly heard a girl screaming.
Look outside and saw the prostitutes running ; run chickens run! hah!
Cause police came and the police was like OMFG fierce.
They pulled the prostitute's hair and pushed them into the van. How sway they are. -.-
After that while waiting for ahlim to pack his thing, they went smoking.
Finally we're heading back home!
Went for our morning walk.
Walked from lan to aljunied mrt station.
Train-ed back to woodlands and bus-ed back home.
Finally resting time!

Sunday night went there again with sist, joyce, ahlim, oevin & jeff.
Bus-ed there again and the guys was betting how many bust stop there is.
Lame ass.
Took a nap at the bus. Cause I not feeling well.
Reach-ed there and we walked towards the lan.
Its fucking far ok.
Reach-ed lan and saw got nothing to do.
Sist was busying dota-ing. -.-
I am really not feeling well at that moment.
Headache, fever, sore throat and coughing.
I was thinking, am I down with H1N1 ?
Me and joyce was sleeping soundly and we actually forgotten that sist got nothing to do. -.-
Till 6.30am and cabb-ed back to woodlands with oevin, jeff & sist.
And Mr oevin was so kind to pay all the cab fare. Thanks alot!
Reach-ed baby's house at 7am and unpack my things.
Can't even sleep cause I am sick. Fuck.

Baby reach-ed home at around 3+ like that.
Baby woke me up and brought me to see doc.
Doctor suspect I am down with H1N1 as I had all the symptoms.
And I was quarantine for 1 week.
And I am so happy that I am not down with H1N1 cause I got no more fever already!
Except for cough and sore throat.
Sadded.
Ok guys, I got to go. BYEE !

Signing off,
ES THER ;♥
I♥XavierLeonXie (:

Back!

2009-06-19T00:25:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOOO!
I am back!
haha. Finally I've the mood to update. -.-
Ok, baby's just went back to camp after his long one week off. Cause of some "special reasons".
Almost everyday's the same.
If baby's having his off then I got to go out for some window shopping.
If not, stay at home like jail bird.
Cause sometimes internet also being confiscated. LOL!
Nowadays keep almost quarrel with baby's dad.
Guess what, he asked me to do HOUSECHORES!
My sist will know why I get so agitated. The reason is because I dont do it at my own house!
Just finish sweeping and mopping the floor like maria. Thats why get to use the internet. hah!
But at least I am better then my poor Tipsy.
Cause he's being cage 24/7.
& our Mr Jasper is on a kind of privilege.
He gets to get out of the playpen. Cause he know where is his "toilet".
Haha. And almost everyone here is bias towards our Mr Jasper.
The reason is because ; He got a smile on his face -.-
LOL! And I am so addicted to maple again! Hah!
And my dumb character is only level 22. LOL!
And by the way, its getting nearer to my EDD man!
4more months only! Kinda scare le.
Somemore havent go for my check-up. Got to wait till baby's next off day then can go -.-
And somemore at here got a noise maker. Bebe -.-
She everyday got thing or nothing also scream de.
Like everyone owe her like that. -.-
And I f*cking feel like slapping her. >.<
Cannot tahan her voice.
LOL! And my child is like kicking me everynight. Irritated.
And that small fellow inside my stomach has been making my stomach cramp and leg cramp almost everynight. And I am having stomach cramp right now ):
Somemore my massager is in camp now. No massages le. Sadded ):
But no choice. Haha!
Think I will stop here le.
I miss my sist damn lots!
I mean it!! haha!

Signing off !
I ♥ XavierLeonXie.

Tired of living.

2009-03-21T02:20:00.000-07:00

I am seriously tired of living in this world.
Went to hospital pass thing to my mama.
Then went back.
Actually going swimming with weijian de.
Then in the end , his mum say what his dad want him home.
If not chase him out. Wtf ?
Then no choice I go with ahboy they all.
See ling and evon both got boyfriend pei , my heart starts to ask this question ; why is it that everytime my boyfriend had to go home ?
Eh hello , he's already 22 yers old, not 2 years old.
Then after swimming , went to have our dinner.
Foo ming and evon is damn rich man.
Order-ed crabs , hot plate tofu , fried rice and hokkien mee.
Total confirm bomb de uhs.
Then he say we kup $5 can liaos.
Then I only eat the hokkien mee.
Cause I never pay much, somemore I like light bulb like that.
Ling and hao , ming and evon. Haiis.
Bus-ed back to lan.
Reach-ed lan went to play pool.
After that called weijian and ask him he coming over to find me a not.
Guess what people , I get scolded again.
Cause our 22 years old friend here can't come out.
Then his dad say want called police.
Please uhs , he got nothing to charge me then want call police.
He thinks that singapore police everytime so free for him mahs.
Then after that he keep quarrel then say want break.
Break jiu break bahs. I got nothing more to say. I am tired of living.
Went to 211 to have our supper.
Then jiu went home le.
Eyes damn pain cant open. Haiis.
Single and un-available now.
Now my feelings is just like this song ; 記得
And also ; 愛上你是一個錯
Haiis.
Takecares all.

Signing off ,
` # ES THER x/33
誰還記得是誰先說永遠的愛我.